...I just experienced a feeling I haven't felt in a looooooooong time deep down in the pit of my stomach...the feeling of true happiness.
And I realized that even though I, and everyone, will go through hard times and struggle, you and I will make it to the end, and there will be beauty from pain. Remember to keep fighting and stand strong, because the end results may be better than you ever expected or dreamed of.
I feel as if I have part of my soul back, my motivation, my caring for things in life. And it is with this part of me back that I take a step forward towards brighter and more positive things.
Remember, you can do anything if you set your heart to it. Make your goals, trust in yourself, and take life step by step. Set and be an example for those around you, for you may not think that they are watching. But they are. We as humans are good at chain reactions... be the one to stick up and see what follows. Have faith as small as a mustard seed and grow something great.
"I leaned back in my chair, and out of nowhere, laughed a real, genuine laugh and really, really smiled. A warm feeling at the bottom of my stomach emerged. I blinked. It felt so familiar... but I could tell it had been a long time since I had felt it. 'Happiness?' I thought. But there was more to it than that. 'Was it... truly back?' The feeling spread and got strong as ever, and I smiled even bigger, and let the feeling stay for several seconds and then dismissed it. And then I realized something. Yes it was, and so was I. I was back in control now. For the longest time, I had felt so heartless, lifeless and full of hate. Without motivation, and I just wanted to quit and give up. I felt so filled up with anger and I took it out on people...that one kid part of you that you hold... mine had been lost. I totally realized it too, and felt so lazy, lost and lonely...and so confused. I felt like I was in a ditch with no way out. Somewhere deep inside me realized that to get out, I would need some help. I called out, and I was answered.
And here I am now. :) "